❤ I briefly mentioned in my last post that I had recently had my wisdom teeth removed. It went well, but one of the side effects was being confined to a couch/limited exercise for a week. Running was, obviously, out, but I also stayed away from yoga because I had a terrible vision of blood spurting out of my mouth during downward dog.
Okay, that probably wouldn’t have happened. Nevertheless, I was a couch potato for a week and did very little activity. One thing I have noticed about having a workout routine is that when you stop working out, it is often more painful than an intense session. My body was tightening up. My calves were sore. Everything ached, and I was so glad to get moving again. On Saturday, I tested my legs on a 3-mile run, which felt like waking up again. Then I went out for a 5-miler on Sunday. It was a new route and I vastly miscalculated, ending up logging almost 7 miles. I was sore the next day but that is a better feeling than doing nothing! I also want to run the Worcester Running Festival coming up in just under a month (its a half marathon), so being able to do 7 miles comfortably right now was a relief.
❤ I have MAJOR writer’s block. I have sat down again and again in the past couple of weeks to work on my novel, but every time I write a sentence I have not the slightest idea where it is going. I’ve added a new character I have mixed feelings about. She is either going to be really important or cut out of the story, and I am not sure which yet. I am doubting myself and the strength of the words, which is not good, because it means I have lost perspective.
I have stayed away from reading YA fantasy novels since November because I have this (irrational?) fear that if I read something in my genre, I will suddenly not have any ideas of my own and accidentally plagiarize. But I am running out of inspiration, and I also am looking at some of my scenes and wondering what in the world they need. More description? Less dialogue? More dialogue? More information? Should I make scenes about 5 pages longer each? Or do things need to be simplified? It is like staring at a library and not knowing which book of hundreds to choose. Brains are an endless field of creativity, but how to figure out which pieces fit together?
My boyfriend says I should be patient, the inspiration will come again. But patience is not a strong suit of mine, and I am also aware that the only way to write is to write. Inspiration, I know, is not something that can be captured and tied down to a daily routine. We have to harness it when it comes in waves. But it is also something we have to create. Why have I been unable to create it for the past couple of months?
I decided my best option was to learn, so I am putting aside my aforementioned fear of reading other YA fantasy fairy novels while I am writing this one. I combed my bookshelf and selected Faerie Wars by Herbie Brennan. It is a New York Times Bestseller, and I don’t remember ever actually finishing this.
I learned to write by reading, so maybe it was stupid to not read fantasy while I write it. People who are published clearly knew what they were doing. I will also re-watch Maleficient, a huge inspiration for the fairy realm in my book, and read Wicked Lovely again. But I want to do it differently. I want to first get swept away, the way all stories sweep, but then I want to look at the works critically. Ask questions. Figure out what makes them worth reading.
Hopefully, my next update will bear news of my muse’s return!